*I can’t remember precisely where the dream starts. I do not know where the others came from.* There was a group of between 12-15 of us standing in a small greeting area that was pretty but spartan. There was light flooding through a large rectangular window that was off-center, on the far wall, to myContinue reading “Dreamz”
Author Archives: Chanzy
Life
I object to the (still) popular lie that there is anything to do with “Choice” when it comes to someone’s sexual orientation. Don’t let them confuse you. They are confused. “Lifestyle Decision” “Lifestyle Choice”- it’s all a way for people to stay malevolently ignorant about something that they Choose not to educate themselves about. There’sContinue reading “Life”
True Colors
**Real quick, I don’t know how to turn off this block editor, and it’s driving me fucking crazy. Sorry, I just had to tell someone. Classic Editor!! You ain’t slick taking away features under the guise of an update, bitch! We see you.** Anyway!! This is no surprise, but tonight I would like to talkContinue reading “True Colors”
Warm
Everyday of my life I am grateful that my Stepmother was an old-school Woman who gave “no fucks” about anyone’s nonsense. She just sent me a message that says “Don’t trust anyone.” You know I don’t. God, I love that woman. Because she knows. And I don’t. I really don’t. Trust is for Falls andContinue reading “Warm”
224
(*If you don’t like mountains, this one will bore you*) Usually, I’d keep this to myself in some vain hope that I might one day acquire it. I’m about a million short, but if I can’t have it, maybe one day, one of you bitches can. There is no house to give your home aContinue reading “224”
Show Up
Vincenzo Just do it Trust me please I love everything about it Update- That’s why I liked him. Of course! Makes sense. #MyType why does this always happen to me?? Episode 4 oh my God Episode 4
Do Yourself a Favor
And watch Made For Love Oh my God. If they don’t renew it, I don’t know what the fuck.
Dragons
I’m still mad about the Gulf of Mexico. You still got like a billion barrels of oil in the basement? I see you, bitch. That’s HOW YOU GET SEA-MONSTERS, BY THE WAY Just so you KNOW. Because a bitch is not tryin’ to wake the Dragonzord, is why. 🐉
Tonight’s Dinner
Will be Sushi Paired with more Sushi And tap water And I Better Not Hear Any Shit About It
Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men
For a long time I have been on the scent of something foul. I knew that it existed but I couldn’t figure out how to bring it up. The world has paired women and queer men together like they are the same; they are not. Homosexual men can display more prejudice against women than heterosexualContinue reading “Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men”
I Know
That You know, That I haven’t waxed yet. I don’t care for your tone. I’ll get to it when I get to it.
Tonight’s Dinner
Will be sushis Paired with soy sauce Served with faucet-water. AND I BETTER NOT HEAR ANY SHIT ABOUT IT
Today’s Lunch
Will be Apples Paired with Broccoli And Emergen-C And I better not hear any shit about it
C.B.
Cynthia Bailey was my least favorite housewife then I saw that she was the “least young”… Looking the way she does, what is she, magic? And She is from ALABAMA WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I can’t. And She is not scared of you, as nice and sweet as she looks, she will drop kick you in the tits.Continue reading “C.B.”
School
What the hell? I’m just going for it- Fuck!-that locker room was gross. The locker room always freaked me out. I was, to my knowledge, the only gay boy in my class, and I was just waiting to be attacked. I never came out, but I was still sure of it. So, I picked theContinue reading “School”
Because
Fuck it, right? Let’s talk about high school. I was bright but had superior teachers in Florida. Alabama, except for a handful of brilliant teachers, no thank you. Southeastern education is as terrible as you think. Worse. ANYWAY My Bah Bah eventually let me slide on my grades because of my anxiety. I was aContinue reading “Because”
Balls
🏀🏀🏀🏀 150 DOLLARS? FOR A BASKETBALL??! Bitch!! What is that?! 🏀🏀🏀🏀 For what? Are they going give me the rest of the cow? Is it cow leather or horse leather?! Fucking UNICORN leather. Damn
A Secret
For whatever reason I know this is true The only real difference between homosexual men and heterosexual men is their sexual orientation. Sounds plain to everyone, and you’d think, right? Ummm, no. I lived around actual hill people and I know the truth. We were EVERYWHERE, even at the end of the Earth. But peopleContinue reading “A Secret”
Next Door
My Brother and I grew up next door to a pair of sisters. Everyone thought we were going to marry each other. Their Father, was, rightly, “not there” for it. That was a scary looking sob, okay? Trust me. When it slowly came out that I was gay he met me outside when I wasContinue reading “Next Door”
2021
I have so much to do this year. It’s been almost as long with me in control of my life and I am not any safer. I’m in a better place, but no, it’s the same damn thing. I can’t help anyone. It’s alright. Super Alright. I got it.
Mama Said
I was walking down a windy street, lost in a daydream, when I went for it and prayed to my ance-sisters* for help. Their answer was soft and comforting…until, -WHAM!- “He won’t save you.” fell into my head in the correct tone. Then, sadder, “He can’t.” which eased it. Then, darker, “We couldn’t save ourselves.”Continue reading “Mama Said”
Anxiety
In Kindergarten our handwriting teacher freaked out on me. I was a Lefty and it was not okay. She was not fucking around. She screamed at me for a while. Thank goodness that’s all she did. I cannot write with my right hand, and I could tell she really wanted to mess up my leftContinue reading “Anxiety”
Hyper
I forgot the male term for nymphomania had to search for it and THIS. SHIT. COMES UP- I can’t. I cannot. I rebuke that. It is NOT more common in Women, you Bastards, that’s a lie. It’s a nasty, nasty lie. To soothe your pride, it is a LIE. Which is why you need yourContinue reading “Hyper”
Today’s Snack
Will be “Barbecue” “Flavored” “Vienna” “Sausages” Paired with a bowl of Sour Cream and Cheddar chips And Four or five fistfuls of Lemon Jello. Yes I did… “Spoon”?!! What, next you want plates? Get the fuck outta here with that!
Good
Remember when Goodkind sounded off on that guy from New Zealand, personally, for selling hot copies of, whatever that book was? Not siding with a thief, but part of his lore is how much money he made off his first book, Or Are you so hard up for $20? (Like, OFF on that guy.) JustContinue reading “Good”
Gold
Be a good Bounty Hunter….nope. I’d pick up smoking again I just know it Be the best pimp… no. I’d mess up men who hurt women for free, and people who own houses are GROSS. Don’t start. Don’t start. GROSS. Be a good cop, don’t wanna. Even though, part of me wishes I had justContinue reading “Gold”
MADtv
Is on HBO!!!! Do it… DO IT! DO IT!!
Flossie Sue
It’s Chambord And Blackberry Ginger ale It tastes like a wine cooler. Change your life. Flossie Sue, girl what you gonna do? It’s Saturday night, I never drink. Fuck it.
Veneno
Is a must-watch for homosexual men. Learn something…some of it is goofy but most of it is on point. There’s nothing I hate more than a transphobic homosexual. No, you are going to be better because I say. Notes- NSFW-In a big way, worth the watch. I’m not crazy over nudity either but it didn’tContinue reading “Veneno”
C
I never look as good all day as I do at the gym. It’s aggravating because for the rest of the day, I look like shredded wheat. So, I get 2 hours of strength and coordination only to blunder through the rest of my day with my klutzy-ass and my rusted-tin-man-body…? It’s like that, huh?Continue reading “C”
Where
Has this been all my life?? I can’t feel my face! Give it to me!!
Clean
Being able to come home clean from the gym is a luxury I never knew I needed. My last gym was low-rent and the locker room was freaking gross. It was. Im not crazy crazy about the charge at the new place but that locker room is freaking alright. Priceless. I literally just want toContinue reading “Clean”
Yesterday,
I went super hard at the gym. Today, I feel like a zombie. All the pressure in my head is right at my forehead and my foot is achy. All the water has receded and the land is dry. I’m tired I’m tired I’m Tired
Tonight’s Dinner
Will be Chicken Sandwiches Paired With Fries And Green Juice And I better not hear any shit about it
The Truth
This Bitch wants the Truth! The truth is if I got stuck in an elevator and died my Parents would say I should’ve used the STAIRS!
Mrs.
When I was about 12 or 13, our youth group visited a nursing home. They told me it was full of old people…I like old people. It took forever just to get there, which was unsettling. They had them in storage, in the back. When we pulled up outside the Geneva County Home, I couldn’t evenContinue reading “Mrs.”
I Don’t Know
If you know this, But the Sun came out today. I think it’s important we show support without asking a bunch of fucked up questions. (Valarie.) Just wanted you to know.
Grind
I haven’t been eating well and today my workout sweat was fucking nasty… Drink more water!
15
At 15 I had one shot (one real shot) to escape in my own right and I squandered it trying to prove a point! I. wanted. out. I know he loved me, it wasn’t enough that motherfucker was crazy. (He, yes he, specifically, tried to break me. It didn’t work. I’m still who I’ve alwaysContinue reading “15”
Cheeky
I have beautiful skin everywhere but my face. AIN‘T THAT A BITCH? Yes. I blame my male relatives and male friends for pressuring me into sex leading to my acne. It was horrific stress acne and when I figured that out it went away. I swear one day it hit me that my Father (orContinue reading “Cheeky”
Because
Because I was sandbagging it, is why. Why would I try to look my best so people can be rougher with me or mine? It was a significant event, and I’ve been wrong about outfits before; under is better. I can heft it up and fix my shit, but why, for who?? When I feelContinue reading “Because”
Ragin’
Purge Night is real. For most Americans it is New Year’s Eve. Like the sun will come up different. Gross. People do whatever they want. I don’t know, there’s something about Purge Night and these assholes in the Capitol. His buffoonery cost people their lives and that’s on everyone… I’m still shocked he was bannedContinue reading “Ragin’”
Max
It took three boxes of strips to wax my body. Am I even human? Why is there so much hair on my hands? To what end? I had to do it a day apart so I had one mangy-looking leg for a minute. It hurts so bad. Upside, I was so angry while I wasContinue reading “Max”
M.B.
Yesterday, I started with an exhausting workout…. and I mean I went at it. I assumed that I’d be spending the day mostly lazy so I went crackers. No harm right? Nope. After my workout, and a long drive, I came home where we ended up moving 2 tons of wood from the front. Today,Continue reading “M.B.”
On Robert Pants II
I needed Katara’s number. Wait! Let me Finish! I did not reach out he sent me a stupid Christmas message in a bottle and my dumbass opened it. It was only his number in red and green. Of course. You know who he is. Anyway, I needed some help from Katara. I wanted to talkContinue reading “On Robert Pants II”
You Already Know…
After seeing the Christmas pictures, tomorrow is a workout day. And a manscaping day. And maybe a finding some super-expired mushrooms day, and a baby sheep sacrifice day, and a RuPaul face-snatcher day. The next million days are workouts day. You better hold that camera up, bitch. Listen to Bop Bop; he loves you. No,Continue reading “You Already Know…”
SWISH
I’m watching the Star Wars Holiday Special…this couldn’t have actually happened, right? I’m tripping balls holiday-style…right? (Thank you, Dayton) -That opening looked like a Pizza Hut commercial. -White Walker Wookiee. This cannot be real. Also, I do not speak Wookie, can a bitch get subtitles?! -Who did Luke Skywalker’s base coat? That is incorrect… -AndContinue reading “SWISH”
T
I liked meaty Seth MacFarlane. He looked very huggable. “I liked her better when she had more meat on them hones.” Whatever, We’ll get there.
Tonight’s Dinner
Will be Sushi Paired with Sushi We will be drinking Water …bitch you order a soda and I swear to god and I better not hear any shit about it
CDC
We were so poor- A tree falling was the most exciting shit in my life…for MONTHS. My Brother and I discovered it after a storm, and we used it as a staging ground for some epic fantasy shit. (For months) It was so much fun. But I’m a “millennial”. The fuck you say… Bitch! YouContinue reading “CDC”
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