home – Chantarctica

C.D.

Last night, I had a crazy dream. First, the air all around was lit the blue-gray color of sunset. The feel at first was certainly more horror. Some crazy shit was happening, or had happened and we were trying to stop it or prevent it from happening. I don’t know. Also, at the beginning ofContinue reading “C.D.”

OMG

Wait for the chorus. There it is https://youtu.be/niG3YMU6jFk

First

Happy New Year. It was 80 freaking degrees today. The world is dying while our leaders fuck up after fuck up. I cannot. I refuse to let this year be shit. Not in this trailer park. Not Today. First of all, you can do whatever you want. You just have to be ruthless and strong,Continue reading “First”

AAANNNDDD

It is the FATHER that determines the Height of a child. FUCK! And I’m understanding the looks my Mother’s Brothers used to give my Dad. Which is FUCKING RIDICULOUS IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT. She could be Brienne of Tarth and it would not matter my master plan is FUCKED! I really needed giant babiesContinue reading “AAANNNDDD”

That Hat

Is freaking FABULOUS I’m getting one in every color! I’m not, but I should. I love it. I absolutely love it.

Dreamland

Yesterday, I did everything I meant to do except nap and meditate. They are so important. Do you sleep well? I’ve never been the best sleeper. Here’s to getting it right tomorrow. Don’t you make fun of me. No-you-are old. Stay Safe, Please. Have a good weekend. Eat something greasy, I will not tell. AreContinue reading “Dreamland”

Western

We are headed out west. Washington Coast 125 Acres 3 residences Way too much Money. You love it. I’m not showing it to you…yet. Are you ready? We’re going in. And- Thank You for Stopping By. You Rock. Seriously, go to sleep. Or Wake Up! Whatever. Thank You. ⚡️☣︎💜

Marblehead

Tonight we are going to New York 8 Acres Join me, won’t you? Clap On Clap Off- We’ll get there. You don’t know. Except ours will be prettier, you watch.

Estate

Come with me, won’t you? We’re going to Virginia. 60 some-odd acres. But does it have a Steam Room?

1080

Going into fifth grade my Father married our Stepmother and we moved into the city. Calling Slocomb a city is like calling Dothan “Birmingham”. Trust me, that killed in Alabama. We’d been living on my Father’s bosses property in a trailer that belonged to us. We had love if nothing else. When our Stepmother enteredContinue reading “1080”

A.G.

Amazing Grace Faith Fellowship Google that shit, if you ever wonder. I was part of the 1st congregation. And I helped recruit people who I assume still go there. I really wanted to behave. Please understand, I truly believed the bullshit about being cured. But no. Assembly ain’t scared this Bitch. You better come correct.Continue reading “A.G.”

SNATCH

I am so sorry and I’ve been sorry since it happened. This is something I meant to do long before now. I saw something happen and I never said anything to anyone. I saw this happen with my own eyes. Here we go. One day, near the end of a school year (or a break),Continue reading “SNATCH”

North

North of Boston I don’t know why I do this to You or myself. Some parts of it seem off, but it has got the Bone Structure, Honey. I cannot go on. I know this is terrible, but if there isn’t an interior pool with a view of the ocean, I’m out. But you knowContinue reading “North”

Skittles

When I was home for Father’s Day, we had to drive down lots of country roads. We were in between Florida and Alabama, out in the ether, and something occurred to me. I said, “You would think that being out here, it would be hard to find someone…” I was talking about homosexual intercourse, “butContinue reading “Skittles”

Storybrooke

When we were down for Fathers Day, I resolved to show my Husband a secret neighborhood. Where I grew up, there is a secret neighborhood that is right off the main highway. I assume the houses were build when the Mill went in. As a poor bitch I never had a reason to go there.Continue reading “Storybrooke”

🍀

This one still makes me angry. When I was a young child, My Father let us adopt a dog. He was an outside dog, but he was ours. He was beige and had a white ring around his neck. His name was Lucky. One day, out in the woods, I heard an awful sound. BeingContinue reading “🍀”

Warm

Everyday of my life I am grateful that my Stepmother was an old-school Woman who gave “no fucks” about anyone’s nonsense. She just sent me a message that says “Don’t trust anyone.” You know I don’t. God, I love that woman. Because she knows. And I don’t. I really don’t. Trust is for Falls andContinue reading “Warm”

Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men

For a long time I have been on the scent of something foul. I knew that it existed but I couldn’t figure out how to bring it up. The world has paired women and queer men together like they are the same; they are not. Homosexual men can display more prejudice against women than heterosexualContinue reading “Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men”

C.B.

Cynthia Bailey was my least favorite housewife then I saw that she was the “least young”… Looking the way she does, what is she, magic? And She is from ALABAMA WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I can’t. And She is not scared of you, as nice and sweet as she looks, she will drop kick you in the tits.Continue reading “C.B.”

Next Door

My Brother and I grew up next door to a pair of sisters. Everyone thought we were going to marry each other. Their Father, was, rightly, “not there” for it. That was a scary looking sob, okay? Trust me. When it slowly came out that I was gay he met me outside when I wasContinue reading “Next Door”

Mama Said

I was walking down a windy street, lost in a daydream, when I went for it and prayed to my ance-sisters* for help. Their answer was soft and comforting…until, -WHAM!- “He won’t save you.” fell into my head in the correct tone. Then, sadder, “He can’t.” which eased it. Then, darker, “We couldn’t save ourselves.”Continue reading “Mama Said”

Lunch Today

Will be Chicken Salad Paired with, the Pretend Soup of the Day (Roasted Red Pepper) Featuring- Sour Cream and Onion PötAto chipś and Cream SodA AND I BETTER NOT HEAR ANY SHIT ABOUT IT