life

Which

Witch Music!! I freaking love songs that sound magic. Yes!! Fuck you, I don’t care. I do not care.

When I first started watching Revenge I thought I identified with Madeleine Stowe’s Victoria Grayson. It wasn’t far off. My Mother also had long black hair. I assumed that was why I loved her, she reminded me of my Mother (or myself). Then, CONRAD starts showing his true self, INCLUDING the fact that he lovesContinue reading “Gray”

Favor

My favorite tv show right now is (Netflix Name) Bring it on, Ghost! with Taecyeon It has been my favorite since I saw it earlier this year. I really like it. I like all of it.

Oh.

I have a new obsession. Come with me now. Netflix. Oh My Ghost (2015) You don’t even know. When she put those bells around her neck?!? “Im the only one who can hear it and who can take it off.” OWNED just like that, it’s over I’m on Episode 6, and at least twice perContinue reading “Oh.”

Today’s Lunch

Will be Chicken Sandwiches with Mayo, Pickles and Cheese, Paired with Water And a knock off MegaRed so I don’t freakin’ die. And I better not hear any shit about it. I KNOW, it’s 3-o-clock. What kind of psychopath actually eats lunch at noon? is my question.

Weeeeeeee

Once, in gym class I was running recklessly fast and I pitched forward. I was going so fast, I rolled and came right back up running, faster, to the shouts of delight. My PE Teacher and one wide-eyed popular boy had seen it. I acted like it didn’t happen. I felt like a fucking PowerContinue reading “Weeeeeeee”

Count

I woke up in a mood. Number 4 is the saddest thing you ever heard. You think you’re ready, but she will break you. 🎶Whatever You Say🎶

Fave

My Favorite thing to do with my Father was look for arrowheads. I didn’t care for fishing, but I loved the woods. I swam in many a river. When we were little, our Dad taught us how arrowheads shine light a light when the sun is right. And how a heavy rain washes them out.Continue reading “Fave”

Mornin’

I’m not writing 37 of these today. I will say, If you set up the coffee every time you finish drinking coffee, You never have to worry about it. There it is. 🎶Push Da Button🎶

711 Last Night

I had a disturbing dream about killer whales. More specifically, a huge pod (thousands). Feeding. Somehow, we were allegedly safe because they were focused on other food. We were travelling in the middle of an orca feeding frenzy to stay safe from the greater danger outside, that drove us into the chaos. Even in myContinue reading “Last Night”

6:45

They’re all slowjams. ……….. What I meant to say is that I’m grateful. I was about to give up until The Cafe. I didn’t say that. Don’t give up, you should listen to it. Must By 2PM. You Must. So, it’s a groovin’ album? No, the old bitch gets it. I get it. He saidContinue reading “6:45”

Demo-n

Once, I was working a very labor-intensive job. I loved it. I fucking loved it. I was paid well, and I got to sweat at work so exercise was redundant. I love shit like that. Anyway, the owner’s son was on the same team as me a good deal of the time. We were aboutContinue reading “Demo-n”

Skittles

When I was home for Father’s Day, we had to drive down lots of country roads. We were in between Florida and Alabama, out in the ether, and something occurred to me. I said, “You would think that being out here, it would be hard to find someone…” I was talking about homosexual intercourse, “butContinue reading “Skittles”

Storybrooke

When we were down for Fathers Day, I resolved to show my Husband a secret neighborhood. Where I grew up, there is a secret neighborhood that is right off the main highway. I assume the houses were build when the Mill went in. As a poor bitch I never had a reason to go there.Continue reading “Storybrooke”

Heat

I don’t know why (And I may be wrong) *GENERALLY SPEAKING* When a man cheats on a woman, I’m on her side. When a woman cheats on a man I am still on her side. (Particularly when he comes at her angry for said indiscretion. Nope. I don’t give a shit for your feelings. IContinue reading “Heat”

🍀

This one still makes me angry. When I was a young child, My Father let us adopt a dog. He was an outside dog, but he was ours. He was beige and had a white ring around his neck. His name was Lucky. One day, out in the woods, I heard an awful sound. BeingContinue reading “🍀”

B.D.

In my dream, I was “being shown” early Life. (?Something) I don’t want to think about it too much. I Awoke in the Water. I was taken everywhere by Water. I was in the Water when it was full of Life. I was in the Water when the only Life was isolated, deformed, underwater cave-mutants.Continue reading “B.D.”

OUAT

One of you Bitches got an enchanted apple? Because a bitch is tired, is why.

G.L.B.

What is incredible is that my entire life, I felt like I was cosmically short-changed, when, as bad as it ever was, I’ve always been very lucky. I mean, “light changing at the last minute” lucky. You forget things like that. I know I did. No…no one can run like me. Specifically, scared running? No.Continue reading “G.L.B.”

OUAT

Rewatching, Once Upon a Time. I cannot believe Rumplestilskin killed Whitney Huston. I forgot about the cover-up. She Bibbidi-Bobbidi-Bit It. 🎶It’s Possible🎶 I miss Whitney Huston.

Today

My Copy final copy of the Codex Alera arrived. Academ’s Fury I found the last copy for $31. And they had to change the artwork for the one that still hasn’t sold. Trying to get a better angle? HAHA! YES!!! Nothing… just a call back to a former rant “Every Day” *STILL!*

Cruella

It was decent. If you imagine she got that cane bloody, it was decent. (Spoilers) Go for it. So… those puppies were hers? Is that what we’re saying?? because that is NOT what they told people. Just saying. She should’ve Maleficent-ed Mommy Dearest, but it’s alright. At least they let us see it. I loveContinue reading “Cruella”

Doodle

I was alone out there And outside of me was dark(er) Big Squares. And I felt their faces Big Grinning Eyes. Insidious Curiosity. To be fighting far from Home And catch the Gaze of an U.N.known (Monster…) Alien. WhAM! Nope. Make them FEEL IT. First Impressions can be wrong. And sometimes they’re not. Don’t Die,Continue reading “Doodle”

Featherweight

I love (LOVE) feeding my yard birds. I don’t know why, but it is incredibly therapeutic. They are so smart. The Crows are my favorite. BlueJays are a close second. When people used to talk about birdwatching I would check out. Let me tell you something, it is freaking insane. Watch a bird stack twoContinue reading “Featherweight”

Dead Book Walking

I am someone who enjoys the original version of things. Not a purist, but certainly particular. There is no such thing as “culture” where I’m from, and I’ve had to learn all of this solo. I hate relizing something I already love is only a dull remake of something superior. It happened more frequently beforeContinue reading “Dead Book Walking”

Reflections on Revenge

Sheila could’ve made some damn money with Victoria slinging that art. No one told her. I thought I understood Victoria so well and one day around season 3 I realized I loved her so much because she reminds me of someone I love very much… That would make me Conrad. I freaking wish. I loveContinue reading “Reflections on Revenge”

Every day

That Book doesn’t sell on eBay is Sweet Mana from Heaven. Licking it off my fingers delicious. I made a fair offer. I really did. $60 was fair. Because I don’t have to pay $80 for a hardback that never retailed for more than $24. You ain’t slick. Gouging-ass-bitch. What is that weird, pandemic-shit? HardbackContinue reading “Every day”

The Moors Murders

This is amazing. I could rip these reconstructions to shreds but it’s all good. “I never had to smack her.” I love Her. Go on.

My Favorite Thing

I love it. Like oxygen. It is my favorite thing, tell your robot.

Workout List (Today)

Dreamz

*I can’t remember precisely where the dream starts. I do not know where the others came from.* There was a group of between 12-15 of us standing in a small greeting area that was pretty but spartan. There was light flooding through a large rectangular window that was off-center, on the far wall, to myContinue reading “Dreamz”

I object to the (still) popular lie that there is anything to do with “Choice” when it comes to someone’s sexual orientation. Don’t let them confuse you. They are confused. “Lifestyle Decision” “Lifestyle Choice”- it’s all a way for people to stay malevolently ignorant about something that they Choose not to educate themselves about. There’sContinue reading “Life”

True Colors

**Real quick, I don’t know how to turn off this block editor, and it’s driving me fucking crazy. Sorry, I just had to tell someone. Classic Editor!! You ain’t slick taking away features under the guise of an update, bitch! We see you.** Anyway!! This is no surprise, but tonight I would like to talkContinue reading “True Colors”

Warm

Everyday of my life I am grateful that my Stepmother was an old-school Woman who gave “no fucks” about anyone’s nonsense. She just sent me a message that says “Don’t trust anyone.” You know I don’t. God, I love that woman. Because she knows. And I don’t. I really don’t. Trust is for Falls andContinue reading “Warm”

Show Up

Vincenzo Just do it Trust me please I love everything about it Update- That’s why I liked him. Of course! Makes sense. #MyType why does this always happen to me?? Episode 4 oh my God Episode 4

Dragons

I’m still mad about the Gulf of Mexico. You still got like a billion barrels of oil in the basement? I see you, bitch. That’s HOW YOU GET SEA-MONSTERS, BY THE WAY Just so you KNOW. Because a bitch is not tryin’ to wake the Dragonzord, is why. 🐉

Tonight’s Dinner

Will be Sushi Paired with more Sushi And tap water And I Better Not Hear Any Shit About It

Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men

For a long time I have been on the scent of something foul. I knew that it existed but I couldn’t figure out how to bring it up. The world has paired women and queer men together like they are the same; they are not. Homosexual men can display more prejudice against women than heterosexualContinue reading “Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men”

I Know

That You know, That I haven’t waxed yet. I don’t care for your tone. I’ll get to it when I get to it.

Tonight’s Dinner

Will be sushis Paired with soy sauce Served with faucet-water. AND I BETTER NOT HEAR ANY SHIT ABOUT IT

Today’s Lunch

Will be Apples Paired with Broccoli And Emergen-C And I better not hear any shit about it

School

What the hell? I’m just going for it- Fuck!-that locker room was gross. The locker room always freaked me out. I was, to my knowledge, the only gay boy in my class, and I was just waiting to be attacked. I never came out, but I was still sure of it. So, I picked theContinue reading “School”

Because

Fuck it, right? Let’s talk about high school. I was bright but had superior teachers in Florida. Alabama, except for a handful of brilliant teachers, no thank you. Southeastern education is as terrible as you think. Worse. ANYWAY My Bah Bah eventually let me slide on my grades because of my anxiety. I was aContinue reading “Because”

Balls

🏀🏀🏀🏀 150 DOLLARS? FOR A BASKETBALL??! Bitch!! What is that?! 🏀🏀🏀🏀 For what? Are they going give me the rest of the cow? Is it cow leather or horse leather?! Fucking UNICORN leather. Damn

A Secret

For whatever reason I know this is true The only real difference between homosexual men and heterosexual men is their sexual orientation. Sounds plain to everyone, and you’d think, right? Ummm, no. I lived around actual hill people and I know the truth. We were EVERYWHERE, even at the end of the Earth. But peopleContinue reading “A Secret”

Next Door

My Brother and I grew up next door to a pair of sisters. Everyone thought we were going to marry each other. Their Father, was, rightly, “not there” for it. That was a scary looking sob, okay? Trust me. When it slowly came out that I was gay he met me outside when I wasContinue reading “Next Door”

2021

I have so much to do this year. It’s been almost as long with me in control of my life and I am not any safer. I’m in a better place, but no, it’s the same damn thing. I can’t help anyone. It’s alright. Super Alright. I got it.

Mama Said

I was walking down a windy street, lost in a daydream, when I went for it and prayed to my ance-sisters* for help. Their answer was soft and comforting…until, -WHAM!- “He won’t save you.” fell into my head in the correct tone. Then, sadder, “He can’t.” which eased it. Then, darker, “We couldn’t save ourselves.”Continue reading “Mama Said”

Anxiety

In Kindergarten our handwriting teacher freaked out on me. I was a Lefty and it was not okay. She was not fucking around. She screamed at me for a while. Thank goodness that’s all she did. I cannot write with my right hand, and I could tell she really wanted to mess up my leftContinue reading “Anxiety”