The power’s out So it’s you, me and Who’s Afraid of Vaginia Woolf. “You laughed your goddamned head off.” In the candlelight. Happy Tuesday.
I’m working on a new look. Most of my life I’ve just thrown on clothes. When you grow up as poor as I did it is complicated. There was never money for clothes and every time I was allowed to pick something it was criticized so hard I never learned to trust my instincts, whichContinue reading “War”
Tonight, was better than the last time I went up.The nerves were on my freaking head the entire day. Up until today it wasn’t clear to me when I’d go back.It was so bad last time. Everyone who was up there was a regular and I REALLY liked that feeling. Two people who were usuallyContinue reading “After the Storm”
My insomnia is bucking like it always does this time of year. We both kind of hate spring. You think late winter is bleak but I hate the heat. Summer will be better. I’ve had a wheeze since COVID and all I can think of is right now how to alleviate the embarrassing thing. FreakingContinue reading “Reset”
Yesterday, I had to do some driving. Last Night, I had a crazy dream. Here we go. So, the trip I took yesterday involved a lot of back roads. At the opening of the dream, the sky was sunless but not full dark. In this dream, I could run really fast. What I am tellingContinue reading “W.D.”
Will be Chakram. Season 5 Edpisode 2. Featuring Big Sexy And Brokeback HailMary. If you get that joke we should be friends. hit me up. And Clover Valley Jesus. (Ugh.) hate Eli. I’m sorry. Hate him hate him hate him, I’m sorry. There are some very racist episodes of Xena Warrior Princess….. Like that blackfaceContinue reading “Tonight’s Episode”
Insomnia won the night. I’m just now getting to sleep. DON’T JUDGE ME, BITCH! Today’s Episode is Fallen Angel. Season 5. I’m totally about to snore. I don’t care.
Yesterday, I put my earrings back in after not wearing them for a year. I have been in various degrees of defensive dress for a while. It’s Enough. You Potato. I look much better with them in. I’m sorry if earrings offend you, it is not really my choice. Pardon me- My earlobes aren’t asContinue reading “Tonight’s Episode”
Is Takes One To Know One Season 4 I can’t, let’s just get some rest.
(pardon me) Yesterday, Was some bullshit. My family got in my head. (My Fault) I knew I had been being too nice. And you start thinking that maybe Walder Frey was justified… And you stop, because- no he was not. Ooooohh it hurt so bad. Good luck next time you cheap bread eating–YOU KNOW WHAT?-I’mContinue reading “Yesterday”
Could Get It Behave! He’s not even 30! Mr. Dirty Mind. I’m trying!!! So all I had seen were his personal YouTube, where he takes 1,000 years to make the best food ever made? You know the ones. He doesn’t talk in those videos which I am a fan of. What I did not knowContinue reading “Alvin Zhou”
How hopeful you felt in early 2016? AS IF it was all 2020, As if the last freaking while hasn’t been dreadful. Doesn’t mean it’ll be bad forever. It’ll get better. I don’t know how, but it will.
Because of the lies little gay children are taught, I did not believe that there was such a thing as consensual sex between two people of the same sex. EVER. I was told there is no reason for that to ever happen and that there was certainly no happiness to be found. While happiness isContinue reading “Glitter”
Trying out new workout clothes. I like the reaction to the pants, only the type I don’t mind looking at me look at me in pants. I tried some shorts. They are too short. My legs are pretty I know that If people wouldn’t stare it would be nice, it was my own fault. We’llContinue reading “Shorty”
Happy New Year. It was 80 freaking degrees today. The world is dying while our leaders fuck up after fuck up. I cannot. I refuse to let this year be shit. Not in this trailer park. Not Today. First of all, you can do whatever you want. You just have to be ruthless and strong,Continue reading “First”
Yesterday, I did everything I meant to do except nap and meditate. They are so important. Do you sleep well? I’ve never been the best sleeper. Here’s to getting it right tomorrow. Don’t you make fun of me. No-you-are old. Stay Safe, Please. Have a good weekend. Eat something greasy, I will not tell. AreContinue reading “Dreamland”
I’ve already grown used to writing in a decent word processor again and it has been a decade since I had one. I know I could’ve gotten one between then and now, but you know how it is, you think I’ve got this, and WordPad ain’t so bad. It wasn’t so good either. (Was IContinue reading “Drop”
Going into fifth grade my Father married our Stepmother and we moved into the city. Calling Slocomb a city is like calling Dothan “Birmingham”. Trust me, that killed in Alabama. We’d been living on my Father’s bosses property in a trailer that belonged to us. We had love if nothing else. When our Stepmother enteredContinue reading “1080”
Where I come from, the laws women’s reproductive health were archaic. When I was very young the only women who had access to birth control were married women. That is some toxic male bullshit meant to keep Women in line. What I am sick of seeing are all of these nasty comments like- “You should’veContinue reading “Down”
More than once at the Assembly Church, they’d run out of oil in the “fancy” bottle, and they’d break out that Piggly Wiggly Brand Olive Oil. Yes, they did. Yes, they did!They absolutely did that-With-the BS TonguesThey scared the hell outta me.Baptists annoyed meThe Assembly Scared meMethodists Bored meThe Lutherans almost had me, that dragContinue reading “Beacon”
That ref has boundary issues. Why do we need commentary when there’s an audience?Whatever. I am in love. https://youtu.be/FSfvXPaXpn4
I met Ron Jeremy at the FAIRFIELD INN in Dothan. There was a Courtyard right next door. …..Budgets. I had not seen any of his movies but I had seen Orgazmo. (*Have not. Woof) I knew I recognized him, which I’m sure he gets a LoT. He said, “I’m an actor.” Kinda defensively. I didn’tContinue reading “Gon-e”
Here’s a question- How (in the world) does wanting to sleep with someone who’s more masculine make you less gay? I’ll wait. That is incorrect. I once overheard a boy say, “It isn’t gay if it’s Chanzy.” It made me angry. Everything makes me angry but that one I remember. It cannot be “less gay”.Continue reading “HOW”
Amazing Grace Faith Fellowship Google that shit, if you ever wonder. I was part of the 1st congregation. And I helped recruit people who I assume still go there. I really wanted to behave. Please understand, I truly believed the bullshit about being cured. But no. Assembly ain’t scared this Bitch. You better come correct.Continue reading “A.G.”
I am so sorry and I’ve been sorry since it happened. This is something I meant to do long before now. I saw something happen and I never said anything to anyone. I saw this happen with my own eyes. Here we go. One day, near the end of a school year (or a break),Continue reading “SNATCH”
When I was 17, there were men who bothered me that backed all the way off the moment I hit 18. They couldn’t know this, but I was personally offended. No, people get hotter as they age. That is so gross, and you are so backwards. I’m behaving. Hold the Frisbee. Christopher Meloni.
History has always been my favorite subject. I didn’t even know it until after I was done with school. (He’s a goober.) As far as history goes, I’ve always thought that understanding history is essential to a better future. Patterns repeat themselves. That’s why old people walk around sounding like prophets and shit. When IContinue reading “Bookfair”
Yesterday, I had trouble eating. It turned into trouble sleeping. Late last night, it had been so long since I ate I got hunger pains. You know those, it feels like you’re being punched and somehow also gassy. I’m alright. I knew I should’ve grabbed something sooner, but I didn’t. Don’t ever think you’re okayContinue reading “Empty”
Are we finally at the spot where I’m allowed to admit the feminine men are where it’s at? Is that alright yet? Obviously, I can only speak for my personal preferences, but still. Age is irrelevant. Yes, pretty. And a little frail-looking, if I’m honest. He can be bigger so long as I can liftContinue reading “People”
When I first started watching Revenge I thought I identified with Madeleine Stowe’s Victoria Grayson. It wasn’t far off. My Mother also had long black hair. I assumed that was why I loved her, she reminded me of my Mother (or myself). Then, CONRAD starts showing his true self, INCLUDING the fact that he lovesContinue reading “Gray”
When I was home for Father’s Day, we had to drive down lots of country roads. We were in between Florida and Alabama, out in the ether, and something occurred to me. I said, “You would think that being out here, it would be hard to find someone…” I was talking about homosexual intercourse, “butContinue reading “Skittles”
I don’t know why (And I may be wrong) *GENERALLY SPEAKING* When a man cheats on a woman, I’m on her side. When a woman cheats on a man I am still on her side. (Particularly when he comes at her angry for said indiscretion. Nope. I don’t give a shit for your feelings. IContinue reading “Heat”
In my dream, I was “being shown” early Life. (?Something) I don’t want to think about it too much. I Awoke in the Water. I was taken everywhere by Water. I was in the Water when it was full of Life. I was in the Water when the only Life was isolated, deformed, underwater cave-mutants.Continue reading “B.D.”
I love it. Like oxygen. It is my favorite thing, tell your robot.
Everyday of my life I am grateful that my Stepmother was an old-school Woman who gave “no fucks” about anyone’s nonsense. She just sent me a message that says “Don’t trust anyone.” You know I￼ don’t. God￼, I love that woman. Because she knows￼. And I don’t. I really don’t. Trust is for Falls andContinue reading “Warm”
I’m still mad about the Gulf of Mexico. You still got like a billion barrels of oil in the basement? I see you, bitch. That’s HOW YOU GET SEA-MONSTERS, BY THE WAY Just so you KNOW. Because a bitch is not tryin’ to wake the Dragonzord, is why. 🐉
For a long time I have been on the scent of something foul. I knew that it existed but I couldn’t figure out how to bring it up. The world has paired women and queer men together like they are the same; they are not. Homosexual men can display more prejudice against women than heterosexualContinue reading “Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men”
When I was about 12 or 13, our youth group visited a nursing home. They told me it was full of old people…I like old people. It took forever just to get there, which was unsettling. They had them in storage, in the back. When we pulled up outside the Geneva County Home, I couldn’t evenContinue reading “Mrs.”
I have beautiful skin everywhere but my face. AIN‘T THAT A BITCH? Yes. I blame my male relatives and male friends for pressuring me into sex leading to my acne. It was horrific stress acne and when I figured that out it went away. I swear one day it hit me that my Father (orContinue reading “Cheeky”
Because I was sandbagging it, is why. Why would I try to look my best so people can be rougher with me or mine? It was a significant event, and I’ve been wrong about outfits before; under is better. I can heft it up and fix my shit, but why, for who?? When I feelContinue reading “Because”
How about- I hated going anywhere and only routinely left my home for the gym or the food place… But now, that we all have to stay inside like it’s Silent Hill, I’m going stir-crazy. Anybody else?? What is that about?! The first season you’re thinking- “Look at these sad ass clowns”. Nine months laterContinue reading “Extra Intro-rdinary”
That’s￼ a very old very gypsy curse on your ass for plagiarism. That makes you a hollow thief. I’ve never in my life looked up what someone else said trying to find something I could steal and pretend was mine. That’s an old gypsy curse on your ass… Nobody knows who Mineko Iwasaki is, butContinue reading “Oh no”
Paying good money to have acid thrown in someone’s face, then finding out it gave them a better face- Not only did you give them a better face, you are also out $2,000! …….or whatever. Rough joke…but I love him. I very accidentally (almost) hooked up with a cousin (on both sides) because we areContinue reading “It’s like”