My older Brother and I were encouraged to (supposed to) carry short sticks everywhere. I never understood. I thought it was about animals. But we were also supposed to go at each other randomly. He was superior at launching an attack. I was better at defense. I didn’t get it until they taught us aboutContinue reading “Brother”
It was tenth grade(?). My acne was finally easing off, it had me four solid years. I was about 16. I was in my bathroom having a panic attack. I couldn’t even settle into my clear face because my body started to swell. And I got oily again, leading to more flare ups. I justContinue reading “Meat”
Were playing with cars and I was learning how to make dream-catchers and shit. They do work, and the answer is psychological. When you make a dream catcher you’re supposed to let the nightmare have at you in every way it wants to come. It hurts, but it gives you something to do with yourContinue reading “Other Kids”
When I was younger I loved watching my Mother put on makeup. It was like watching her get ready for War. She didn’t get ready like she was so pretty, she went at her appearance like a savage and fought it into submission. You know what is appealing? Someone who can do everything with brushes.Continue reading “Made”
History has always been my favorite subject. I didn’t even know it until after I was done with school. (He’s a goober.) As far as history goes, I’ve always thought that understanding history is essential to a better future. Patterns repeat themselves. That’s why old people walk around sounding like prophets and shit. When IContinue reading “Bookfair”
I’m supposed to wear glasses. Big fat freaking Bifocals. I prefer to wear them, I can not HANDLE putting something on my own face that can fog up and leave me BLIND. And when you’re a goofball they are always flying off of your face! I’m done. I’m dealing with it. Tape em up likeContinue reading “Sí”
Will be Chicken Sandwiches with Mayo, Pickles and Cheese, Paired with Water And a knock off MegaRed so I don’t freakin’ die. And I better not hear any shit about it. I KNOW, it’s 3-o-clock. What kind of psychopath actually eats lunch at noon? is my question.
Once, in gym class I was running recklessly fast and I pitched forward. I was going so fast, I rolled and came right back up running, faster, to the shouts of delight. My PE Teacher and one wide-eyed popular boy had seen it. I acted like it didn’t happen. I felt like a fucking PowerContinue reading “Weeeeeeee”
My Favorite thing to do with my Father was look for arrowheads. I didn’t care for fishing, but I loved the woods. I swam in many a river. When we were little, our Dad taught us how arrowheads shine light a light when the sun is right. And how a heavy rain washes them out.Continue reading “Fave”
I’m not writing 37 of these today. I will say, If you set up the coffee every time you finish drinking coffee, You never have to worry about it. There it is. 🎶Push Da Button🎶
I had a disturbing dream about killer whales. More specifically, a huge pod (thousands). Feeding. Somehow, we were allegedly safe because they were focused on other food. We were travelling in the middle of an orca feeding frenzy to stay safe from the greater danger outside, that drove us into the chaos. Even in myContinue reading “Last Night”
Once, I was working a very labor-intensive job. I loved it. I fucking loved it. I was paid well, and I got to sweat at work so exercise was redundant. I love shit like that. Anyway, the owner’s son was on the same team as me a good deal of the time. We were aboutContinue reading “Demo-n”
When I was home for Father’s Day, we had to drive down lots of country roads. We were in between Florida and Alabama, out in the ether, and something occurred to me. I said, “You would think that being out here, it would be hard to find someone…” I was talking about homosexual intercourse, “butContinue reading “Skittles”
When we were down for Fathers Day, I resolved to show my Husband a secret neighborhood. Where I grew up, there is a secret neighborhood that is right off the main highway. I assume the houses were build when the Mill went in. As a poor bitch I never had a reason to go there.Continue reading “Storybrooke”
I don’t know why (And I may be wrong) *GENERALLY SPEAKING* When a man cheats on a woman, I’m on her side. When a woman cheats on a man I am still on her side. (Particularly when he comes at her angry for said indiscretion. Nope. I don’t give a shit for your feelings. IContinue reading “Heat”
This one still makes me angry. When I was a young child, My Father let us adopt a dog. He was an outside dog, but he was ours. He was beige and had a white ring around his neck. His name was Lucky. One day, out in the woods, I heard an awful sound. BeingContinue reading “🍀”
What is incredible is that my entire life, I felt like I was cosmically short-changed, when, as bad as it ever was, I’ve always been very lucky. I mean, “light changing at the last minute” lucky. You forget things like that. I know I did. No…no one can run like me. Specifically, scared running? No.Continue reading “G.L.B.”
I love (LOVE) feeding my yard birds. I don’t know why, but it is incredibly therapeutic. They are so smart. The Crows are my favorite. BlueJays are a close second. When people used to talk about birdwatching I would check out. Let me tell you something, it is freaking insane. Watch a bird stack twoContinue reading “Featherweight”
I am someone who enjoys the original version of things. Not a purist, but certainly particular. There is no such thing as “culture” where I’m from, and I’ve had to learn all of this solo. I hate relizing something I already love is only a dull remake of something superior. It happened more frequently beforeContinue reading “Dead Book Walking”
I love it. Like oxygen. It is my favorite thing, tell your robot.
*I can’t remember precisely where the dream starts. I do not know where the others came from.* There was a group of between 12-15 of us standing in a small greeting area that was pretty but spartan. There was light flooding through a large rectangular window that was off-center, on the far wall, to myContinue reading “Dreamz”
I object to the (still) popular lie that there is anything to do with “Choice” when it comes to someone’s sexual orientation. Don’t let them confuse you. They are confused. “Lifestyle Decision” “Lifestyle Choice”- it’s all a way for people to stay malevolently ignorant about something that they Choose not to educate themselves about. There’sContinue reading “Life”
For a long time I have been on the scent of something foul. I knew that it existed but I couldn’t figure out how to bring it up. The world has paired women and queer men together like they are the same; they are not. Homosexual men can display more prejudice against women than heterosexualContinue reading “Toxic Masculinity in Homosexual Men”
Cynthia Bailey was my least favorite housewife then I saw that she was the “least young”… Looking the way she does, what is she, magic? And She is from ALABAMA WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I can’t. And She is not scared of you, as nice and sweet as she looks, she will drop kick you in the tits.Continue reading “C.B.”
I have so much to do this year. It’s been almost as long with me in control of my life and I am not any safer. I’m in a better place, but no, it’s the same damn thing. I can’t help anyone. It’s alright. Super Alright. I got it.
I forgot the male term for nymphomania￼ had to search for it and THIS. SHIT. COMES UP- I can’t. I cannot. I rebuke that. It is NOT more common in Women, you Bastards, that’s a lie. It’s a nasty, nasty lie. To soothe your pride, it is a LIE. Which is why you need yourContinue reading “Hyper”
Remember when Goodkind sounded off on that guy from New Zealand, personally, for selling hot copies of, whatever that book was? Not siding with a thief, but part of his lore is￼ how much money he made off his first book, Or Are you so hard up for $20? (Like, OFF on that guy.) JustContinue reading “Good”
￼I never look as good all day as I do at the gym. It’s aggravating because for the rest of the day, I look like shredded wheat. So, I get 2 hours of strength and coordination only to blunder through the rest of my day with my klutzy-ass and my rusted-tin-man-body…￼? It’s like that, huh?Continue reading “C”
Last night, it struck me that I haven’t actually been enjoying it the way I should…I’ve got a ton of pictures of the moon but what I really like is looking at the damn thing. So this is the last one for a while, maybe forever. -But!- Happy December! (Or whatever it is) (wherever youContinue reading “Moonshine 12”
Look what I found- 1. That spiderweb was freakin’ gorgeous. Enormous. And 2. That is the meanest looking spider I have ever seen!! Kill them all my sweet, even the wasps, and that woodpecking-perckerhead too Slay Queen!….I’m so sorry for that But seriously, Happy Halloween or whatever!!
Last night, I was having trouble getting to sleep(Quiet, DEMONS!)and couldn’t relax until I wrote about it. It was insane how I felt before I wrote vs. how I felt after. It’s my go-to and always has been. Crazy stuff happens and my first instinct is to write it down. I’m not calling friends orContinue reading “Work It”
(In alphabetical order because my headphones 🎧 save everything that way, deal with it.🇦🇶) I hate exercise￼ as much as I love not being grotesquely obese. good music helps.